So. Here’s the scoop. I have been considering shutting down the other blog and starting fresh for a long while now. I liked when I first started writing and I didn’t worry about what others might think. Somehow it was easier to write just for me and for the unknown. Once people I knew “in real life” started discovering my blog and reading, I suddenly felt self-conscious. All my life I have felt self-conscious, but when I started blogging, I shed that skin.
I never told my family or friends that I was writing a blog. It was discovered on a fluke one day and word spread. I know that quite a few of my family members check in on the blog now and then and some friends too. I don’t know why it bothers me so much. Maybe it’s because they don’t comment. They don’t mention it to me. We don’t talk about it. But the fact that they know comes across in subtle ways. It makes me uncomfortable.
Today, a friend who also happens to be a coworker made a remark to me as we were leaving work. She said, “There goes the 5:00 whistle! Everyone’s leaving the quarry and heading to the Flintstone bowl!”
That comment was remarkably similar to something I had written in my last post. I made a reference to Fred Flintstone and the quarry in that post. She didn’t say she read my post, just made the remark. I could be wrong. Maybe it had nothing to do with my blog post. Maybe it is just a coincidence. Who knows?
I had to take an online training session at work today about electronic communications and personal use of company computers. Part of the training referenced the tremendous number of blogs that are being written and how many people have been fired due to the fact that they’ve written something about their jobs on a blog. I’ve written about my job. I think I’m discreet and I don’t think I’ve ever written anything inflammatory, but it scared me. And when my friend and coworker made that comment to me today, I knew it was time to make the change. I don’t know how serious my company might be if they decided to take issue with my blogging, but it’s definitely not worth risking my job over it. Maybe I won’t write about work anymore. I might have to think twice about the things I write from here on out; just be a little more discreet, you know?
So, it’s time to shut the old blog down and start fresh. I’m keeping the same screen name for now. I know if someone wants to track me down bad enough, they will. We’ll see. I’m going to hang out here for now and make this my new home.
Oh, and the title? It’s a Van Morrison song…one of my all-time favorites. One interpretation of the song is that it is about being part of this universe, which I am. I’m not sure the title will remain a permanent fixture either. We’ll see. I have a brand new canvas and I’m just going to play with it for a while.